Well folks, there have been some things brewing in my neck of the woods. I'm going to give you a brief outline of that before I get to the real reason for this post.
For starters, a few weeks ago, I posted about a friend that I was worried about. There's significant backstory to that. I'm going to give you the quick version....
Our freshman year, Emily and I were praying about dating. Emily lives in South Carolina, so that would mean a long-distance thing. After quite a bit of prayer, we both heard God say, rather clearly, "wait."
So, we waited. We talked once in a while, but conversation had pretty much ceased until a couple of weeks ago. Once we started talking again, we both realized that we have feelings for each other. And, well, we're praying again.
That's good news. I love it. But I've been worried about something. I have a friend, we'll call her Katrina. She's super cool. Actually, she's an amazing woman. However, I don't feel that we have a future together. She had always wanted to be a missionary. I have not. And I will not be the one to hold her back.
About 40 minutes ago, I decided that I wanted to clear up any doubts or questions. I had had my concerns that she had a crush on me. So, I decided to ask.
Turns out that she does...
Not what I wanted to hear. I wanted to hear that I was delusional. I wanted to hear that I was making the whole thing up. But that wasn't the case.
So, I was honest with her. I told her about Emily and I. I told her that she's amazing. I told her that she's a wonderful friend, but that I don't believe that we are heading the same places, and thus, I don't think that it would work out in the long run.
I did what I knew that I had to. I did what I could to let her down gently. So...
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SUCH AN A**HOLE?
Somebody tell me that I did the right thing...
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6 comments:
If I were her, I'd appreciate the heads-up. Her feelings are probably feeling a bit squashed right now though.
Don't beat yourself up too much. If you were a real toad, you'd have just kept quiet and encouraged her attentions to feed your ego.
Joe, you did the right thing, trust me. And remember, Our God Reigns.
you feel like a jerk because she's a friend and you don't want hurt a friend
You did the right thing. She's probably embarassed, but appreciating your honesty. Just continue to be friends with her - if there's awkwardness, just ignore it, and it will go away.
Hey Joe, I am 30 years old and have rarely heard of such an honest act. Of course, you could have strung her along while you were waiting for the other thing to pan out, and nobody would have blamed you. You could have played on both sides of the fence and slept in whatever house you wanted. But you didn't, and that -- I think -- says a lot about you.
You did the right thing..
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